They Said..

they said i'm just normal.
am i pretending for getting an attention?

they said,
i'm just good.
i can even managed my appearances look.
i wears good cloth, i eat well,
i smile big,
i'm doing my daily work just like before.
and i can settle my works on time.

they said,
i'm just okay.
maybe i just can't live alone.
i'm just need to mix with others..
maybe i just felt lonely,
i must find a life partner.
maybe i just need someone care and love me unconditionally.
but are they?

they said,
maybe i just lacked a faith to ALLAH..
learn to accept things happened for a reasons.
maybe i need to be more pious and practise more religious thing to be close to ALLAh..
they said..

the facts are, they knew nothing about what i'm going through...
they knew nothing about what the war inside me that i'm failed to understant too.
they failed to understand that I'm just tired, afraid being judged, afraid in everything, suffocating, dying, slowly.. and what they can see, my "drama", my pretending to be good.
and they continued said what they think~